I'm Back - And It's Back!

Hello Everyone!! I pray everyone had a blessed Christmas, knowing that the best present under the tree is Jesus. I pray for everyone to have a happy, healthy, and blessed 2008!

Yes, around Dec. 7th I noticed some definte weakness in my legs beginning to worsen quickly. My sister had taken my Mother and I to Opryland Hotel and to see the Rocketts Christmas program. That was sooo beautiful. It was there I ended up having to get a wheelchair at one point, because the legs would just not move. We got back late Saturday night; I called the doctor Sunday Morning and he immediately put me in the hospital. Ran tests and the few tumors they had been watching had grown, plus numerous others had grown as well. They are laying along the "dura", which is a protective covering around our spinal fluid. Unfortuntantely, the tumors are in the spinal fluid, but most all of them are small. So, I've been going through radiation to my spine. Then, one day my Dad was taking me to radiation. We were sitting at a red light, there was a car behind us, waiting too. Well, this third car comes behind her apparently looking somewhere else - had no idea what was going on- did not even try to stop - ran into the car behind us and knock her into us. So, that lady knock two sitting cars into the intersection. Luckily, my Dad and I both had our seat belts on -- if not, we would have hit the windshield hard. Both of our necks and heads were going back and forth. There was a lot of traffic that day, so we were able to move the cars to the nearest parking lot - we had plenty of witnesses! I called my Radiologist's office and they told me not to move - well, like I was really going to anyway. I thought, this would be great to have a broken kneck right now. So, I got to have my first Ambulance ride! It wasn't that great though because I couldn't turn my head to look around. I just looked at the top of the ceiling the whole time. I think the driver took the longest route to the hospital too. I kept asking, "are we almost there yet?" Well, I had to go through more scans and more scans. Everything was fine - but they did find a couple more tumors in the "C" spine. Not big and they have just added that on to my current radiation. So, something good came out of it. It has definitely been crazy lately.

It has taken me a while to realize that I am going through cancer treatment again. It just doesn't seem real. But I know that God is right here beside me fighting this battle for me. He has shown me several verses lately -- 2 Chron. and 2 Peter. How I just have to watch Him and He will do the fighting and after I have suffered for a while, He will bring me back to strength and health. I just have to hang onto His promises.

So, add me to all your prayers lists again. I'm really tired from everything, plus radiation makes you tired, but I'm up too late right now, so that's not good. I promise I will update soon on more specific ways to pray.

Thank you all again for your love and concern and especially your prayers,

Kim Wilson

"with God ALL things are possible"

Good Results!!

Good Results!!

Sorry it has taken me so long to update everyone on the results, but I'm like that these days, very slow. I guess that's what happens when you get old and have your brain radiated about 4 or 5 times. I leave myself notes everywhere, but then I forget where I left them. It's crazy.

But anyway, The spots in my brain are basically undectectable now. They don't show up unless you knew where they had been. PTL! There are still a few going down my spine that show up slightly with the contrast, but they said it was very light. Then there is one near the bottom of my spine that is still lighting up pretty good, but there is not change in size. If it keeps showing up, they may do a biopsy of it to see if it is cancer or not. That sounds like a lot of fun doesn't?Sticking a needle in your back ~ I don't think so. But, oh well, I've had everything else poked and praded on me, what's one more!

I'm still seeing double and triple vision - sometimes sideways too. That's real fun. That's when I have to just stand where I am or sit down until it comes back ~ or if I didn't I would probably be arrested for public intoxication. I am so unsteady, it's crazy - and that's when I am seeing normal, just think what I'm like when I'm seeing double and triple. But it just comes and goes when it wants to. I've have found nothing that brings it on. It's really crazy if I'm in a store and it starts, sometimes I can close one eye and see fairly normal, but then if someone walks up and looks at me - they just kind of look and walk away; like is she deformed or something. Or if I have to ask someone where someting is and it happens to be a male worker, he will just look at me; wondering if I'm winking at him or something. It just cracks me up!So, I have an appointment to see an opthomologist this coming Monday Dec. 3. Maybe he will be able to give me a little more information on how to deal with this or something that can be done to correct it. The doctors believe that the optic nerve may have been damaged either by 1 or all 3 or these: the tumor itself; the surgery removal of it; or the Cyberknife that was done afterwards to finish getting all of it. So hopefully this doctor will be able to tell me something.Thanks for all your prayers -- God is still working Miracles. Remember to look for them everyday. And each night before you go to bed, thank Him for this day that He has given you to live. Live each day to its fullest, because we never know what tomorrow holds.Please keep up the prayers. Spots can continue to pop up, so I still have to have scans every 3 months. We know God can keep them away if that's what He wants. I'm still on oral chemo. I'm trying to get muscle tone back in my legs. I have absolutely no muscle tone in my legs. I have exercises to do to try to build that back up. I sure hopes it starts helping soon. I fall all the time in the house, well not all the time, but sometimes. Luckily, I haven't fallen out anywhere - yet! I have been doing some speaking engagements lately and I love doing that. I have been praying and sitting and waiting on God to guide me in what His purpose is for me right now. I continue to read His Word and wait, but I also tell him what I would like to do, but if He doesn't me to do that, then show me what it is. Well, it wasn't long after that that the lady who checks me out at my oncologist's office asked me to speak at her church; the lady next to her asked if I could at her church; I have spoken twice at my church; and most recently at my Uncle Jimmy & Aunt Sara's Jolly Elders class. I just love that name. That has been great and something I want to continue to do and get better at - especially at letting Christ shine through me while I speaking and giving God the glory for why I'm still here. I also have a heart to speak to younger women. So pray that will happen. And then of course, I'm still writing "My Story" - wow, I did not know it took this long. I'm going to have to just stop at some point, then start the second saga I guess. But it is something I want to get out to everyone, but especially young women, younger than 40. But educating women of all ages is number one.I was interviewed on one of our local stations here about "My Story" and it went great. I asked the anchor guy what he would be asking and what he wanted me to talk about. And the first words out of his mouth were, "How your faith in God has given you the strength to make it through this." I about fell over. I said really?, I can talk about that? He said, yes, it is your story, so you can say whaterver you want. He said that that is what he wanted the people to hear. I'm trying to get copies of it now, so when I do, I'll send some down to NOBTS.

I've also been making little crafts and selling them. Not a multi-million dollar business yet, but it's enought for a sandwhich now and then. Who knows, maybe they will take off. Continue to pray for:

1. my Mother. She has been to see another doctor about her hip and she is so hopeful that he will beable to do something. Pray she doesn't get too down if he can't.

2. Pray for my step-father who is trying to take care of both my Mother and me.

3 I'm also having land-lord problems -- there were no "M" housing available when I arrived, nor near my family. And since I can't drive - I'm pretty much stuck - and rent it not low.

4. that no new spots will show up anywhere -- for a long, long, time - or forever. (God can do what He says He can do)

5. my doctors appointment wth the opthomologist

6. that I will continue to be asked to speak

7. that Ican finish something in writing soon

Thank you ALL again. Prayer is definitely working.

"Now this is the assurance that we have in Him, that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. And if we know that He hears us, we know that we know that we have what we have asked Him for." I John 5:14-15

P.S. I'm going to try to send you all some pictures of of new great nephew; my new great niece; and of course, my pretend new Johnson nephew.

Blessings to you all,

Kim

As you can see, I could only get one on here. But I will try to get my new ones in the next blog.