"My Story"

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It seems lately that a lot of people have been asking about "my story". My story of when I was diagnosed, how I felt, what I went through, etc.. I'm assuming that is what they are wanting.
I started writing "my story" four years ago Oct. 10, 2002. I stopped it when I went back to Singapore because, for one I thought "my story" of having cancer was over and if it wasn't, I did not want to continue it. But, it looks like I need to finish my story and keep on going. God has really been laying that on my heart. He has been laying scripture after scripture on my heart about this (Lloyd would be proud) one thing -- to be still and to know Him and to most of all "BELIEVE" - my "word" since I've been back. I'm trying the be still part, that's always been a hard one for me. But to me what I'm sensing from God right now is being still and knowing His plan - and that His plan is best; not MY plan. That maybe MY plan needs to change and I should go with His. Sometimes I'm a little hard headed. His plan is always best. We may not see that here and now, but we will one day. We just have to trust and believe. So, that is what I am working on and trying to finish - "My Story". I've even had a local anchor man to ask about interviewing me on television. I was interviewed at the end of the RACE FOR THE CURE and every time they would show the news this past weekend, they would show a snip-it of that interview with Kim Wilson. It was funny. You might be able to get on to www.wbir.com and click on "running with robbin" or something like that - anyway, on that she interviews my cousin. It is kind of far along in the run, so you can run it up, but she shows my team shirt and talks about me and my story again. It's crackin me up.

Okay, prayer requests, because I'm getting very sleepy and need to get some rest tonight:

1. Allowing God to speak through me. Let me get out of the way -- through all this "story" stuff, because it is all about Him.
2. I'm having another lumbar puncture procedure done Wednesday at 1:30 p.m. - pray those results come back negative again.
3. That no news is good news - I haven't heard anything from the CT of the abdomen, chest, and pelvis from last week -- but I will get the results tomorrow, so pray they are negative as well.
4. My friend Wendy is having another test done tomorrow, she may have to have some spots biopsied on her liver that look suspicious.
5. Praise: My Mom has been getting out more - shopping, of course, what all women do. And she looks and feels better.
6. Praise: My cousin in Atlanta and I have been getting closer - it's been good, but continue to pray for that situation.

Thank you all again for your support, encouragement, cards, scripture, just everything - you really don't know how much it means to me. It's like I said in my interview: "When you are running the breast cancer race, you are really running it alone. And you never feel it more than when it comes to the end of the race and they split the line up - survivors this way! they yell out -- and you have to leave your team and go down that line by yourself, but you look on either side of you and you see your team and all these others that you don't even know, cheering you on, and then you know that your not alone anymore, they are still right there beside you cheering you on -- But most of all, we know God is right there beside us walking with us; carrying us; or whatever we need to make it across."
Love you all
Kim Possible
Matt: 19:26


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4:00 a.m. steriod feeding time again!!

Fun, fun - the steriods are kicking in again and my body loves to get up at 4 a.m. and eat and just do whatever it feels like doing. I try to channel that energy into good things, like cleaning or reading, etc. but that doesn't always happen. One, because the old TV show "Coach" comes on around 6 am and I just love that show. So, if I can, I try to go back to sleep, after I eat of course, and then get back up and watch Coach. It is so funny. Anyway. This morning I did clean the kitchen stove top. Took off the knobs and everything. Cleaned off the counter tops to make room for my medicines. They had been sitting on my stove top, which didn't seem like a good idea. So, all that is in order and the fire hazard is avoided! You would be proud Mr. Friedmann. :)

We had the Race for the Cure Team Award Party this past Saturday, Oct. 21. You know, the same day that Tennessee beat Alabama?!! Remember that?? :) Anyway, I thought I would update you all on the outcome of the Party since I'm sure everyone already knows the outcome of the game.

First of all, Kim's Krusaders won 1st Place for the largest team in the church category!! Yeah!! with 113 members, plus - some are still signing up, but they don't go toward the team number anymore. So, that is 1st place for 2 years in a row now. Yeah again!!

Second, I won the New Balance Tennis Shoe Breast Cancer Survivor of the Year Award. Yeah! What all that means, I'm not really for sure, but Yeah again!

The MC for the Party was sitting at our table - it was me and all my nieces and niece-in-law. We were giving him a hard time; joking around with him, etc. like a table full of women would do - it was fun. He is a local anchor man here. When I received my award, we were all smiling and happy, then He gets up there and starts talking about how he couldn't believe I was fighting cancer and how we were all laughing, etc... He was the one that got us all crying.

We didn't win t-shirt design, but we thought - I guess they thought they couldn't let us win everything!! But we think we have the best. Those who donated will be receiving a Kim's Krusaders shirt. And no they are not pink - but they are Orange!! :) Beautiful!

Some prayer requests:
1. They have found some new lesions on my spine. I had my first of 14 treatments of the spine this past Friday. So, I have 13 more to go. They are radiating the brain and then just moving down and radiating the spine. So, I don't have to come back or add more days - actually it adds maybe 2 or 3 is all. They are radiating from L2 to S3. I just added that in just in case anyone knew that area. But pray for complete healing in that area, as well as the whole spine. I think I'm going to pour some vegetable oil down it so these so called "little" lesions will stop sticking. But seriosly, they are finding them early and the doctors believe they can get them with no problem and that they will stay gone for a good long while. I asked my Radiation Oncologist to not tell me numbers, so that's why he said "a good long while". I like that better. :)
2. My step-father has bronchitis and is the main caretaker of my mother. Pray for quick healing there. It is really bothering them both that they cannot come over and help right now.
3. One of my best friends - Wendy - her mother-in-law has been diagnosed with ALS and is not doing well. It has hit the family hard. Wendy is very stressed and having health issues herself. I'm worried about her. Pray for something to be resolved there.
4. I'm working on my "Story" - pray I can convey what God wants me to say in an article, in a book, in interviews, etc... I started my "story" 4 years ago and have been adding to it, more than I wanted to, but that's what God wanted, so pray that God will guide my words, actions, and thoughts, during this time - I, we never know who is watching and what kind of impact we are having.
5. My family in Atlanta where my cousin was murdered. They are still hanging on/iin, but still just barely. My cousin Alan calls or emails me every week, sometimes more than once. I can tell some difference. He said the other night - "I can't believe I call you with all you are going through with cancer and you are lifting me up". I told him that it wasn't me, but God through me -- Then I asked him if he had read all those books I bought him yet. I bought him all the Lee Strobel's and a new Bible, etc. It was kind of funny. He said he had started one. But he did say they had opened up a new LifeWay near his house, so that next time I'm down he would take me there. :)
6. CT Scan scheduled for Oct. 26th, I think. It will be of the Chest, Abdomen, and Pelvis. This is just a regularly scheduled thing right now. Every other month scans for the first few years, especially with new things popping up.
7. Another Lumbar Puncture will be done on Nov. 1 - just to double check the spinal fluid again to make sure there are no cells in the spinal fluid. And I'm with the doctor on this one, better safe than sorry. He said, she did great with the first one - like I just loved it or something. I don't know that I would say that, but it wasn't that bad.
6. Last, but not least, This is a prayer, praise, and WoW! - I love Goobers (the chocolate covered peanuts) that you can only usually find at the movies. They have just the right amount of chocolate to the peanut. Others have too much chocolate or not enough peanut, etc. It is Goobers or nothing. Then finally I found this little shop in West Knoxville named Bradley's Chocolates - and they have the perfect chocolate covered peanuts - even better than Goobers because the chocolate is better, but they have to be a special treat - only once in a while.But this past Friday, after my treatments, I needed to go pick up the Race t-shirts and just so happens Bradley's chocolates are very or kind of near the t-shirt place - well, the place we ate lunch is. Anyway, after eating lunch, we go to Bradley's and they also have the cutest little nick-nacks in there too - cutest!! But, my "word" since I've been back with the brain tumor, has been "BELIEVE". I have this word all over my house. I bought these wood block letters to spell out believe and spray painted them and hung them on my wall. Well, I was walking around the store before purchasing my chocolates and found this little ceramic cream colored cross with a silver inlay in the middle with the word "believe". You could put it in a pouch and carry it with you wherever you go. It also had the verse with it: "Blessed are those who have not seen and yet believe." John 20:29
I couldn't believe it. I found my word in my favorite place. I found my "positive" for the day. You have to look for a positive each day. Some days are harder than others, that's for sure, but they are there. But that was a great positive for me.

Thanks for listening/reading again
Especially thank you all for your support, prayers, encouragement, everything
I love you all
Kim Possible Signing Off for now
"With God All Things Are Possible" Matt. 19:26


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On The Road Again

Well, here we go again. I feel like singing that old country song - "On the Road Again". I know I'm showing my age, but at least the ages keep coming at this point.

I had written a note a couple of weeks ago and of course kept messing it up for some reason or another and could never get it to post - Now I know why - this message needed to be posted instead.

Race for the Cure in Knoxville is coming up, and I was writing about that, and it is very important, more important now than ever, but my news is just as important.

My cancer is back in my brain again and it is all over - all over basically meaning they have to do what is called "whole brain" radiation now. There are now no more options to radiation. There are too many lesions. And where some of the lesions are located, it is too dangerous to try to do the Cyberknife procedure they did to me last year after the initial brain surgery.

I received this news last Friday, Oct. 5th; saw my Radiation Oncologist on Monday, Oct. 8th; and started treatments on Tuesday Oct. 9th. I am now in another whirlwind again - or on the road again.

This really came as a complete shock because I had just had an MRI of the brain 2 months ago and all the doctors felt it looked good; that there was no change. There were still the same left over things from the original surgery and a few spots here and there that they had been supposedly "watching", but other than that, they were not worried. Then I go in and boom - it's back; it's all over; and you have to have whole brain radiation. Then next, my Oncologist informs me he is going to perform a lumbar puncture procedure right there in his office - right then - at that moment. I'm like, okay? This was to check to see if there were any cancer cells floating around in my spinal fluid - and if this came back positive, then I would have to start more chemo as well.

Well, I go into my "let's just make jokes through this mode". He starts cleaning off my back and says something about getting the solution on my shirt. I said you better not have because I bought this shirt in Indonesia and you will have to buy me another one. He said no big deal, all my shirts say "made in Indonesia" in them. I said, no, I bought this one "in" Indonesia. Then at other times I would do or say things and he would just laugh. He said he had never had anyone joke around so much while he was sticking needles in their back. I thought, well, it was either laugh or cry, so I chose laugh - it is much more fun. And I got his age out of him, but I can't say it on my blog, that wouldn't be fair. But it took a lumbar puncture to get it out of him, I was excited. It was funny.

So, radiation treatments are not that bad. They are beginning to make me a little nauseated and of course the same old very, very tired. All my hair will fall out, and I just got it back again. But oh well, it is beginning to turn cold, so I'm going to look for a good long haired wig - I think. I don't know. I think I'll try to make it fun. These treatments may make me sicker, just because I'm so close behind other treatments. But we'll see.

My number one praise right now is that the Lumbar Puncture came back negative! And I can say that with a little more praise in my voice right now. So, that means that there are NO cancer cells in my spinal fluid!!! Did I say Praise the LORD!! So, no more chemo - at least not right now.

But, my spirit is way, way, down. I am so very tired. My gas tank is on empty. My light is flashing. I told God that I know He gives us all the strength we need and that it is all Him, but that He is going to have to give me something because right now I can't take another step. But I do have great doctors and Friday one of them prayed with me - for God to give me strength.

So, that is the number one thing a need right now. I can't lift anybody up anymore. I want to so bad. I don't want anybody to be sad about this or bring anybody down. I want to work for the Lord. There is so much to do. I know I need to find other ways to do that, and I have already been working toward that direction - this blog is one thing - articles - I wrote my great niece a book - I'm still working on my story (which just so happened to begin 4 years ago Oct. 10th). So, I have some things in mind. Which, if I think about it, I probably should hurry and get them out, because they may be coming out faster than I want them to. My doctor did say I would have short term memory loss with this. So, if my next blog says the same thing - just ignore it! :)

But I need all your arms to hold me up right now. I love you all.

There are several verses that have been coming at me lately:

Matt. 19:26

Josh.1:9

and others about not being afraid. I will share with you as God does, so you can pray them with me.

Again, I love you all and I will keep you updated - probably doubly more now :)

Getting Ready for The Race for the Cure

Run the Race with Endurance"
Hebrew 12:1
I can't believe I have been home every year for the past 4 years in order to be involved with the RACE FOR THE CURE here in Knoxville, Tennessee. The first year I was home just after being diagnosed with breast cancer, it was just right after or right before the Race. So, I missed it - or I would have been here for 5 races. Unbelievable. I didn't plan it that way - but, I assume it was in God's plan that way. And I'm glad it was, because His plans are always better than our plans, even though it doesn't seem that way at the time. At first I wasn't involved, but the more I've been involved with the Race and getting it together and educating others on the importance of taking care of our bodies - these bodies, the only ones God has given us - the more enjoyable it has become. It has become a part of my life now.
The Races are so very important to breast cancer survivors and I think you have to be a survivor to truly understand why. The main goal of the Race is to raise awareness, to educate, to raise money for research - but, and this is a big BUT ( he, he) it also Celebrates those who are still surviving; fighting; and honoring those who survived for as long as God wanted them to survive here on this earth. This Race is very important to those of us who are still here.God has left us here for a reason. So, we must use every day to its fullest and honor Him in all we do. We must glorifiy Him in all we do, etc... I'm pretty sure this applies to all of us and not just breast cancer survivors. Some of those days, it is very hard and