Believe

I am staying at my Dad's & Debbie's right now and they are on their way to get me. I had been staying with Mom and Dick before that.

I've been sick and in and out of the chemo room for fluids - meaning I was deydrated twice, and probably am now. I just have no appetitie and don't want to eat.

I have to go this Friday, Jan. 5 for an MRI of the brain and thorasic spine. I really don't like scans. They always seem to find something. They alsways say, "but if we do, we catch it early". I say, "yea, yea, yea,' you lay there on that table wondering what they are seeing and having to wait another week for the results - when most of the results in the past have shown a spot here or here or there. Can you tell, I'm a little nervous and a little frustrated?

1. Pray for my attitude: "Like apples of gold in settings of silver is a word spoken in right circumstances." Proverbs 25:11

2. Pray my scans come back clear :"Whatever things you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive." Matt. 21:22

3. Pray my appetitie will come back and the doctor's will figure out what is going on there: "in hope against hope he believed, . . "Romans 4:18

Always remember my story I have claimed lately, that is found in 2 Chronicles. Where God tells Jehoshaphat to stand his ground. That he's not doing the fighting, God is. The next morning they stood there and watched as God fought the battle and won!

4. Pray I'll have the strength to stand still and let God fight the battle for me - I'm tired and I can't do it myself anymore.

Thanks for continuing to send me the Vision so I can keep up with what is going on on campus. I wish I could be down there so bad. I have since the first day it happened. Maybe soon.

Talk to everyone soon.

Much love and blessings,

Kim :)

Matt. 19:26

Long Time No Read (get it?!)

Hey Everybody!! Sorry that it has been so long that I have written, but what is new with me??!! :) At least lately. I started out good and then it slowed down for some reason. I think the radiation to the brain did it - at least that's what I tell everyone. I don't know how long I'm going to be able to use that excuse though. :)

I want to thank everyone sooo much for the outpouring of cards for my Birthday and Thanksgiving. Everyone was wonderful! and made me feel so special. Your words really lifted me up. I'm still in the process of writing thank you notes, so don't think I've forgotten you. I have to write thank you notes ~ for one thing it is the proper Southern thing to do and , secondly, it gives me something to do. :) But really, I just wanted to thank you for thinking of me in the way you did and saying the special things you did. I do want to know something though -- was Vanee holding the NOBTS people hostage in the cafeteria or something??? :)

Well, so far so good on the doctor''s reports. No cancer cells found in the spinal fluid. Yeah! Praise The Lord!. Then, I went to the eye doctor this past Friday and he saw no damage to either eye - so another Yeah!! He just had to adjust my reading glasses prescription a little. He was expecting some damage, but he saw none, so Praise The Lord again! I guess just normal getting old changes. I never thought I would be excited about getting old and having normal changes - wrinkles, etc.... :) I hope I get to experience all of them.

Since my Birthday, Nov. 12, I've not had an appetite and we can't seem to figure out why. I finally went to the doctor last week and found out that I was dehydrated, so they gave me some IV fluids for a few hours and sent me home. I'm still trying to eat. It's getting better, but not great. We think it is all the medicine I am taking for the movement disorder I have now from the tumor I had on my cerabellam (or something like that). Anyway, pray that I will want to start eating again. They all try to scare me into eating and it scares me, but I still don't have an appetite. I want to have one.

My next scans are sceduled for Friday Jan., 5 at 11:30 a.m. They are of the Brain and Thorasic and Lumbar Spine. I will then see my doctor's for the results on Wednesday, January 10 at 1:15 and 2:00. So, please be praying for these. That they will find nothing growing in any of these places or anywhere in my body. Pray that God will just touch my body and kill any cancer cells that may be floating around in my body that we can't see right now. Plus, pray that He will give me my strength and appetite back as well.

After that, I will start oral Chemo again. It's not supposed to be that bad. I'm not for sure for how long. I don't know for very long. So, it shouldn't be that bad. I'll let everyone know.

I've been receiving some beautiful birthday, Thanksgiving, encouragements, and now Christmas Cards. All of them have sayings in them that I have heard over and over again all my life. I don't know if everyone who reads my blog knows that my "word" for this time around is "BELIEVE". But, one of the cards I was reading said "Faith is not simply believing that God can. It is knowing that He will." That really hit me for some reason. I have to truly know and believe. I have faith that He can and believe that He can, but do I know that He can?

Pray for my spirit, appetite, and strength this week.
Pray for my friend Tracey - she is having her surgery Tuesday
For opportunity to share with others

Thank all of you again very much for your encouragement and support through all of this. I'll try to stay in touch better. - Oh I have included some pics of some RadTechs that I promised them back in October. :)
Love,
KP Matthew 19:26


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"My Story"

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It seems lately that a lot of people have been asking about "my story". My story of when I was diagnosed, how I felt, what I went through, etc.. I'm assuming that is what they are wanting.
I started writing "my story" four years ago Oct. 10, 2002. I stopped it when I went back to Singapore because, for one I thought "my story" of having cancer was over and if it wasn't, I did not want to continue it. But, it looks like I need to finish my story and keep on going. God has really been laying that on my heart. He has been laying scripture after scripture on my heart about this (Lloyd would be proud) one thing -- to be still and to know Him and to most of all "BELIEVE" - my "word" since I've been back. I'm trying the be still part, that's always been a hard one for me. But to me what I'm sensing from God right now is being still and knowing His plan - and that His plan is best; not MY plan. That maybe MY plan needs to change and I should go with His. Sometimes I'm a little hard headed. His plan is always best. We may not see that here and now, but we will one day. We just have to trust and believe. So, that is what I am working on and trying to finish - "My Story". I've even had a local anchor man to ask about interviewing me on television. I was interviewed at the end of the RACE FOR THE CURE and every time they would show the news this past weekend, they would show a snip-it of that interview with Kim Wilson. It was funny. You might be able to get on to www.wbir.com and click on "running with robbin" or something like that - anyway, on that she interviews my cousin. It is kind of far along in the run, so you can run it up, but she shows my team shirt and talks about me and my story again. It's crackin me up.

Okay, prayer requests, because I'm getting very sleepy and need to get some rest tonight:

1. Allowing God to speak through me. Let me get out of the way -- through all this "story" stuff, because it is all about Him.
2. I'm having another lumbar puncture procedure done Wednesday at 1:30 p.m. - pray those results come back negative again.
3. That no news is good news - I haven't heard anything from the CT of the abdomen, chest, and pelvis from last week -- but I will get the results tomorrow, so pray they are negative as well.
4. My friend Wendy is having another test done tomorrow, she may have to have some spots biopsied on her liver that look suspicious.
5. Praise: My Mom has been getting out more - shopping, of course, what all women do. And she looks and feels better.
6. Praise: My cousin in Atlanta and I have been getting closer - it's been good, but continue to pray for that situation.

Thank you all again for your support, encouragement, cards, scripture, just everything - you really don't know how much it means to me. It's like I said in my interview: "When you are running the breast cancer race, you are really running it alone. And you never feel it more than when it comes to the end of the race and they split the line up - survivors this way! they yell out -- and you have to leave your team and go down that line by yourself, but you look on either side of you and you see your team and all these others that you don't even know, cheering you on, and then you know that your not alone anymore, they are still right there beside you cheering you on -- But most of all, we know God is right there beside us walking with us; carrying us; or whatever we need to make it across."
Love you all
Kim Possible
Matt: 19:26


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4:00 a.m. steriod feeding time again!!

Fun, fun - the steriods are kicking in again and my body loves to get up at 4 a.m. and eat and just do whatever it feels like doing. I try to channel that energy into good things, like cleaning or reading, etc. but that doesn't always happen. One, because the old TV show "Coach" comes on around 6 am and I just love that show. So, if I can, I try to go back to sleep, after I eat of course, and then get back up and watch Coach. It is so funny. Anyway. This morning I did clean the kitchen stove top. Took off the knobs and everything. Cleaned off the counter tops to make room for my medicines. They had been sitting on my stove top, which didn't seem like a good idea. So, all that is in order and the fire hazard is avoided! You would be proud Mr. Friedmann. :)

We had the Race for the Cure Team Award Party this past Saturday, Oct. 21. You know, the same day that Tennessee beat Alabama?!! Remember that?? :) Anyway, I thought I would update you all on the outcome of the Party since I'm sure everyone already knows the outcome of the game.

First of all, Kim's Krusaders won 1st Place for the largest team in the church category!! Yeah!! with 113 members, plus - some are still signing up, but they don't go toward the team number anymore. So, that is 1st place for 2 years in a row now. Yeah again!!

Second, I won the New Balance Tennis Shoe Breast Cancer Survivor of the Year Award. Yeah! What all that means, I'm not really for sure, but Yeah again!

The MC for the Party was sitting at our table - it was me and all my nieces and niece-in-law. We were giving him a hard time; joking around with him, etc. like a table full of women would do - it was fun. He is a local anchor man here. When I received my award, we were all smiling and happy, then He gets up there and starts talking about how he couldn't believe I was fighting cancer and how we were all laughing, etc... He was the one that got us all crying.

We didn't win t-shirt design, but we thought - I guess they thought they couldn't let us win everything!! But we think we have the best. Those who donated will be receiving a Kim's Krusaders shirt. And no they are not pink - but they are Orange!! :) Beautiful!

Some prayer requests:
1. They have found some new lesions on my spine. I had my first of 14 treatments of the spine this past Friday. So, I have 13 more to go. They are radiating the brain and then just moving down and radiating the spine. So, I don't have to come back or add more days - actually it adds maybe 2 or 3 is all. They are radiating from L2 to S3. I just added that in just in case anyone knew that area. But pray for complete healing in that area, as well as the whole spine. I think I'm going to pour some vegetable oil down it so these so called "little" lesions will stop sticking. But seriosly, they are finding them early and the doctors believe they can get them with no problem and that they will stay gone for a good long while. I asked my Radiation Oncologist to not tell me numbers, so that's why he said "a good long while". I like that better. :)
2. My step-father has bronchitis and is the main caretaker of my mother. Pray for quick healing there. It is really bothering them both that they cannot come over and help right now.
3. One of my best friends - Wendy - her mother-in-law has been diagnosed with ALS and is not doing well. It has hit the family hard. Wendy is very stressed and having health issues herself. I'm worried about her. Pray for something to be resolved there.
4. I'm working on my "Story" - pray I can convey what God wants me to say in an article, in a book, in interviews, etc... I started my "story" 4 years ago and have been adding to it, more than I wanted to, but that's what God wanted, so pray that God will guide my words, actions, and thoughts, during this time - I, we never know who is watching and what kind of impact we are having.
5. My family in Atlanta where my cousin was murdered. They are still hanging on/iin, but still just barely. My cousin Alan calls or emails me every week, sometimes more than once. I can tell some difference. He said the other night - "I can't believe I call you with all you are going through with cancer and you are lifting me up". I told him that it wasn't me, but God through me -- Then I asked him if he had read all those books I bought him yet. I bought him all the Lee Strobel's and a new Bible, etc. It was kind of funny. He said he had started one. But he did say they had opened up a new LifeWay near his house, so that next time I'm down he would take me there. :)
6. CT Scan scheduled for Oct. 26th, I think. It will be of the Chest, Abdomen, and Pelvis. This is just a regularly scheduled thing right now. Every other month scans for the first few years, especially with new things popping up.
7. Another Lumbar Puncture will be done on Nov. 1 - just to double check the spinal fluid again to make sure there are no cells in the spinal fluid. And I'm with the doctor on this one, better safe than sorry. He said, she did great with the first one - like I just loved it or something. I don't know that I would say that, but it wasn't that bad.
6. Last, but not least, This is a prayer, praise, and WoW! - I love Goobers (the chocolate covered peanuts) that you can only usually find at the movies. They have just the right amount of chocolate to the peanut. Others have too much chocolate or not enough peanut, etc. It is Goobers or nothing. Then finally I found this little shop in West Knoxville named Bradley's Chocolates - and they have the perfect chocolate covered peanuts - even better than Goobers because the chocolate is better, but they have to be a special treat - only once in a while.But this past Friday, after my treatments, I needed to go pick up the Race t-shirts and just so happens Bradley's chocolates are very or kind of near the t-shirt place - well, the place we ate lunch is. Anyway, after eating lunch, we go to Bradley's and they also have the cutest little nick-nacks in there too - cutest!! But, my "word" since I've been back with the brain tumor, has been "BELIEVE". I have this word all over my house. I bought these wood block letters to spell out believe and spray painted them and hung them on my wall. Well, I was walking around the store before purchasing my chocolates and found this little ceramic cream colored cross with a silver inlay in the middle with the word "believe". You could put it in a pouch and carry it with you wherever you go. It also had the verse with it: "Blessed are those who have not seen and yet believe." John 20:29
I couldn't believe it. I found my word in my favorite place. I found my "positive" for the day. You have to look for a positive each day. Some days are harder than others, that's for sure, but they are there. But that was a great positive for me.

Thanks for listening/reading again
Especially thank you all for your support, prayers, encouragement, everything
I love you all
Kim Possible Signing Off for now
"With God All Things Are Possible" Matt. 19:26


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On The Road Again

Well, here we go again. I feel like singing that old country song - "On the Road Again". I know I'm showing my age, but at least the ages keep coming at this point.

I had written a note a couple of weeks ago and of course kept messing it up for some reason or another and could never get it to post - Now I know why - this message needed to be posted instead.

Race for the Cure in Knoxville is coming up, and I was writing about that, and it is very important, more important now than ever, but my news is just as important.

My cancer is back in my brain again and it is all over - all over basically meaning they have to do what is called "whole brain" radiation now. There are now no more options to radiation. There are too many lesions. And where some of the lesions are located, it is too dangerous to try to do the Cyberknife procedure they did to me last year after the initial brain surgery.

I received this news last Friday, Oct. 5th; saw my Radiation Oncologist on Monday, Oct. 8th; and started treatments on Tuesday Oct. 9th. I am now in another whirlwind again - or on the road again.

This really came as a complete shock because I had just had an MRI of the brain 2 months ago and all the doctors felt it looked good; that there was no change. There were still the same left over things from the original surgery and a few spots here and there that they had been supposedly "watching", but other than that, they were not worried. Then I go in and boom - it's back; it's all over; and you have to have whole brain radiation. Then next, my Oncologist informs me he is going to perform a lumbar puncture procedure right there in his office - right then - at that moment. I'm like, okay? This was to check to see if there were any cancer cells floating around in my spinal fluid - and if this came back positive, then I would have to start more chemo as well.

Well, I go into my "let's just make jokes through this mode". He starts cleaning off my back and says something about getting the solution on my shirt. I said you better not have because I bought this shirt in Indonesia and you will have to buy me another one. He said no big deal, all my shirts say "made in Indonesia" in them. I said, no, I bought this one "in" Indonesia. Then at other times I would do or say things and he would just laugh. He said he had never had anyone joke around so much while he was sticking needles in their back. I thought, well, it was either laugh or cry, so I chose laugh - it is much more fun. And I got his age out of him, but I can't say it on my blog, that wouldn't be fair. But it took a lumbar puncture to get it out of him, I was excited. It was funny.

So, radiation treatments are not that bad. They are beginning to make me a little nauseated and of course the same old very, very tired. All my hair will fall out, and I just got it back again. But oh well, it is beginning to turn cold, so I'm going to look for a good long haired wig - I think. I don't know. I think I'll try to make it fun. These treatments may make me sicker, just because I'm so close behind other treatments. But we'll see.

My number one praise right now is that the Lumbar Puncture came back negative! And I can say that with a little more praise in my voice right now. So, that means that there are NO cancer cells in my spinal fluid!!! Did I say Praise the LORD!! So, no more chemo - at least not right now.

But, my spirit is way, way, down. I am so very tired. My gas tank is on empty. My light is flashing. I told God that I know He gives us all the strength we need and that it is all Him, but that He is going to have to give me something because right now I can't take another step. But I do have great doctors and Friday one of them prayed with me - for God to give me strength.

So, that is the number one thing a need right now. I can't lift anybody up anymore. I want to so bad. I don't want anybody to be sad about this or bring anybody down. I want to work for the Lord. There is so much to do. I know I need to find other ways to do that, and I have already been working toward that direction - this blog is one thing - articles - I wrote my great niece a book - I'm still working on my story (which just so happened to begin 4 years ago Oct. 10th). So, I have some things in mind. Which, if I think about it, I probably should hurry and get them out, because they may be coming out faster than I want them to. My doctor did say I would have short term memory loss with this. So, if my next blog says the same thing - just ignore it! :)

But I need all your arms to hold me up right now. I love you all.

There are several verses that have been coming at me lately:

Matt. 19:26

Josh.1:9

and others about not being afraid. I will share with you as God does, so you can pray them with me.

Again, I love you all and I will keep you updated - probably doubly more now :)

Getting Ready for The Race for the Cure

Run the Race with Endurance"
Hebrew 12:1
I can't believe I have been home every year for the past 4 years in order to be involved with the RACE FOR THE CURE here in Knoxville, Tennessee. The first year I was home just after being diagnosed with breast cancer, it was just right after or right before the Race. So, I missed it - or I would have been here for 5 races. Unbelievable. I didn't plan it that way - but, I assume it was in God's plan that way. And I'm glad it was, because His plans are always better than our plans, even though it doesn't seem that way at the time. At first I wasn't involved, but the more I've been involved with the Race and getting it together and educating others on the importance of taking care of our bodies - these bodies, the only ones God has given us - the more enjoyable it has become. It has become a part of my life now.
The Races are so very important to breast cancer survivors and I think you have to be a survivor to truly understand why. The main goal of the Race is to raise awareness, to educate, to raise money for research - but, and this is a big BUT ( he, he) it also Celebrates those who are still surviving; fighting; and honoring those who survived for as long as God wanted them to survive here on this earth. This Race is very important to those of us who are still here.God has left us here for a reason. So, we must use every day to its fullest and honor Him in all we do. We must glorifiy Him in all we do, etc... I'm pretty sure this applies to all of us and not just breast cancer survivors. Some of those days, it is very hard and

I'm Back!!

Well, I feel like I've been gone for a month or longer - actually it almost has been.
I just went to the doctor and the last thing I know I ended up in the hospital and then ended up in Atlanta for the very tragic funeral of my 22 year old cousin.
Then, while there, was faced with questions from family members that I felt not quite ready to answer. I just asked the Holy Spirit to guide me and asked God to clean up what I messed up. :) It has defintely taught me that I need to be out in the world more today witnessing - just talking and building relationships with people; finding out what they believe and why. And asking God to teach me His Word more so that I will know these answers in ways that people today will understand or will be able to relate to; not something that is foreign to them. I keep telling myself I have an excuse - I've had brain surgery and I'm on medication, so that's why I'm not as sharp as I used to be. :) (No comments from my proffesors on that one)

RACE FOR THE CURE is coming up - it will be on Oct. 28th this year. It is the 10th anniversary and will begin at the World's Fair Site this year. I'm trying to send out emails to everyone, but if you do not get one please go to www.Komenknoxville.org to get signed up for my team - "Kim's Krusaders". Same as before - you can sign up as a team member, but don't have to show up or can show up just for support. You can sign up as "sleep in for the cure" this year". Both of these choices will still get you t-shirts. I also have a Fund raising web page this year and people can just give money that way if they wish. With it being the 10th anniversary, they are asking that each team member give an extra $10.00. So, if you would like to do that, that would be great too.

It is getting late and I must go for now, but Elizabeth has been on to me to make sure I update my Blog so that everyone will know what is going on. So, I'm trying to do that, but it is 2 a.m. and I am falling asleep. So, I will work on it again tomorrow.

Prayer requests (for now)
1. That my new medications will continue to work
2. For my family in the loss of my cousin
3. For my cousin who has still not given his life to the Lord, but seeds are planted
4. For doctors visits that I have this week
5. For things I want to do this week without a car - because I can't drive - for how long - the doctor doesn't know yet. And it's a little hard for me to stay in one place for long. :)

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you, all so much for praying and caring. I can feel your prayers and thoughts and hugs.
Kimmie
Matt. 19:26 "With God ALL Things are Possible"

Just a quick update from the "real" Kim. Elizabeth has been filling in for me and will continue when I am not able. - Thank you Elizabeth.

I wanted to update you all on a couple of things and some new prayer requests.
First, I had received some wrong information at first - or rather some information that I'm not sure of yet that we still need to pray for. I'm still not sure that my cousin Alan has given his life to the Lord yet. PTL though, we have had some good discussions. Some where I have wished that I had listened better in Apologetics, etc, classes. :) But the Lord is helping me.

The rest of the family is just "hanging" in there - one day at a time. It is so hard. It is the hardest thing I've ever been this closely involved in.

My health has done wonderful though. Another Praise. My new doctor group is called "HOPE" neurology. Imagine that! And that's what she has given me. I may not get these totally under control, but manageable. But it all worked out just in time for me to come down here.

My Aunt and Uncle's health is poor. They are going to the doctor today. So, that is another prayer.

Most of all Pray that this family will feel the Hand of God in a mighty, mighty way; that His hands surround them; and most of all that HOPE surrounds them, because they feel none of this right now. They are believers, but it's still hard.

Thank you all over and over again for your thoughts and prayers,
Kim

Pray for my family

Please pray for Kim's family this week. Sunday she found out that her little cousin, who lives in Atlanta was killed this weekend. She was 22yrs. old and the only daughter to her cousin. The family is not doing well, as expected. Kim and her sister are going down to be with her family. Kim wants to be with them but knows the stress that this involves which could bring on an MDM. She also does not want her family to worry about her. So please lift up Kim and her family during this week. There are many questions that need to be answered and details tended to.

What to pray for:
1. Kim's family in the loss of their daughter, granddaughter, niece and cousin.
2. Pray Kim would have discernment of what to say especially to her cousin, Alan who just gave his life to the Lord on Sunday night. Pray she would have words of encouragement and a listening ear.
3. Pray Kim would listen to her body and rest when she needs to rest so she does not have an episode.
4. Pray for their travel down to Atlanta and back.

Race for The Cure

The Komen Knoxville Race for The Cure is coming up on October 28, 2006. By participating in the Komen Knoxville Race for the Cure® I've joined the fight against breast cancer so that one day we will find a cure! Please help me reach my fundraising goal by making an online donation TODAY...

Please note all donations to Komen Knoxville Race for the Cure® are tax deductible and you will automatically receive an electronic gift acknowledgment once your donation has been processed.
For additional information about the Knoxville Affiliate of the Susan G. Komen Breast Cancer Foundation or if you too would like to register as a participant in this year's race, please visit www.komenknoxville.org.

You can also visit my personal fundraising page by clicking on the title Race for The Cure at the top.

Also you can join us by walking in the race!

Much Love,
Kim


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Kim says hello!

Kim would like to say hello to everyone out there. Right now she is in the hospital again. This is the second time in two months. After her first cyber knife she had some unexplained tremors/movements and the doctors didn't know why. Well she has had these "episodes" a few times and each time is hospitalized for about a week. Well this last time she was sent to a new doctor, who she loves, and is hard at work trying to find a medicine that will stop them. The doctor said the "episodes" are called Muscle Disorder Movements (we'll call it MDM for short). These movements were caused during the first cyber knife - some nerve was hit or something that causes them. (ok that's not the medical lingo but I'm trying!) These movements can be brought on by stress and headaches.

Well after being in the hospital since Thursday the doctor gives Kim hope that MDM can be controlled which is great news! Kim is thrilled that she will be able to overcome this and it won't interfere with daily living. The doctor has been trying out some new medicines on her to see which one works. One of them gives her energy. This is good because Kim seems to running short on that lately. But once she leaves the hospital she will need to stay with someone or someone stay with her for two weeks. She will also not be allowed to drive for quite sometime.

After talking to Kim tonight on the phone she is sounding positive. She is excited that with medicine she will be able to overcome MDM.

Things to pray for:

1. Kim has many questions for the doctor about the medicine, can diet help with MDM, are there other things she can do to help her cope, etc. So pray she gets a clear response from the doctor. Also if there are other questions pray she asks them.

2. Pray the doctor finds the right medicine and can get it regulated so the movements stop.

3. Pray for Kim as she has to stay with someone for two weeks. Also pray as she will have to rely on others for transportation. This is very frustrating when you are used to going, going, going!

4. Pray Kim would continued to be encouraged. The news she got is wonderful in that it is not more cancer! PTL! But continual doctor's visits can be weighing at times. Pray her times in The Word are refreshing and uplifting.

Sometimes we are at a loss for words to pray. Thank our Savior He is interceding for us on our behalf! Also when those times come praying God's Word gives us those word's. Here are a few you can start with:

"Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice.

Philippians 4:4

"Oh give thanks to the LORD, for he is good, for his steadfast love endures forever!"

Psalm 107:1

"I love you, O LORD, my strength. The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. I will call upon the LORD, who is worthy to be praised, and I am saved from my enemies."

Psalm 18:1-3

"May he grant you your heart's desire and fulfill all your plans! May we shout for joy over your salvation, and in the name of our God set up our banners! May the LORD fulfill all your petitions! Now I know that the LORD saves his anointed; he will answer him from his holy heaven with the saving might of his right hand. Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the LORD our God. "

Psalm 20:4-7

Leaving for a Much Needed Vacation!!

I will be leaving tomorrow (Sunday) for the beach with my friend Wendy. She has graciously paid for us to go to a resort/spa in Florida for the week. We will be back on Friday.
I am so excited to be getting away for a while. To rest, relax, recover, and to rejoice over how God has been working in my life. And to spend time with God in prayer and in His word.

Please pray for our trip:
- for safety
- for rest
- for good time with God
- for our families - that God will keep them safe and healthy while we are gone

Thank you all again for your continued support and prayers. I am so very blessed.

Party pictures are still coming and I will have beach pictures to add to that. I promise! :)

I will update you all on how God is speaking to me now and leading. Pray that I will hear from Him clearly. Most of all, pray that others will see God shining brightly in me in all that I do and say at all times. I am only here because of Him.

"With God all things are possible." !!!! Matthew 19:26

Much love and blessings,
Kim

God Still Performs Miracles

Well, I had all my scans last week and God has performed another miracle because their are no more tumors in my head!!! Praise the LORD!!

The scan said the previously noted bilateral lesions can not be identified on todays exam.

Is that not cool? They are completely gone!

We knew God could do it.

All my other scans came back good too - nothing new.

Except for one small spot on my upper leg - femur. They are going to do an MRI on it this Thursday, June 15th and I will see the doctor on the 16th. But, my doctor said that even if it was something that it is very small and can be radiated and that would take care of it. So, even though there is something there, it's not anything big. We can pray that out of there! :)

So, remember my MRI on Thursday
- that if God willing, there be nothing there
- that if there is anything there that it will be identified clearly
- and if there is anything there, that it is still very small and subtle

I had a celebration party last Friday. I took pictures, but I don't have them on my computer yet. But I will try to do that tomorrow.

So, look for the PARTY pics coming soon!!! :)

Please continue to pray for complete and total healing. Thank you all again for your prayers, concern, and support. I couldn't do it without you and God.

Much love,
Kim
"Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." John 14:27

God Still Performs Miracles

Well, I had all my scans last week and God has performed another miracle because their are no more tumors in my head!!! Praise the LORD!!

The scan said the previously noted bilateral lesions can not be identified on todays exam.

Is that not cool? They are completely gone!

We knew God could do it.

All my other scans came back good too - nothing new.

Except for one small spot on my upper leg - femur. They are going to do an MRI on it this Thursday, June 15th and I will see the doctor on the 16th. But, my doctor said that even if it was something that it is very small and can be radiated and that would take care of it. So, even though there is something there, it's not anything big. We can pray that out of there! :)

So, remember my MRI on Thursday
- that if God willing, there be nothing there
- that if there is anything there that it will be identified clearly
- and if there is anything there, that it is still very small and subtle

I had a celebration party last Friday. I took pictures, but I don't have them on my computer yet. But I will try to do that tomorrow.

So, look for the PARTY pics coming soon!!! :)

Please continue to pray for complete and total healing. Thank you all again for your prayers, concern, and support. I couldn't do it without you and God.

Much love,
Kim
"Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." John 14:27

Sorry it has been so long since I have updated my blog. I got behind, then I started therapy on my arm for lymphodyma. I am on my last week of my 2 week therapy. My arm is all wrapped up so I am typing with one hand. Kind of hard, but much better than trying to write with my left hand since I am right handed. Trying to do just about everything with one hand (your non-dominate one) is pretty hard, but I've just got 3 more days. Yeah!

Since my last update I have had another round of chemo, which went really well. They gave me a new anti-nausea drug with my chemo, which is long acting -around 2 to 3 days. And it helped tremendously. Another praise!!

Also sice my last update though a very good friend of mine found out that her cancer has reoccurred. Her name is Tracey. We went through cancer treatment together the last time around. That is how I met her - in the chemo room. She is 4 years younger than me, but our families are very similiar. She was born late in the family, like me, with a sister who is over 10 years older than she - whereas mine is 10 years older than me. We all just clicked and I have felt apart of her family as well as she in mine. It is like we have known each other all our lives. There is also a special bond there that we share, but wish we didn't - having cancer. And now having a reoccurrence together.

It has been very hard on us and our families, as you can imagine. Tracey is married and has a 5 year old little boy named Jackson. Tracey's cancer is colon. Another thing we have in common as well is that neither one of us has any family history of these cancers.

We are both asking the question "why" a lot now. Why us and why at such young ages - and Tracey has a son she needs to be here for to help raise with her husband Todd.

Please remember them and the family during this time. I know they will greatly appreciate your prayers. She has had many people praying for me as well. Tracey is very special to me. We have scheduled our next chemo treatments together on the same day and time - which will be this coming Monday, May 22 at 9:00 a.m.

Since my last update I have also been able to spend time with another good friend, her husband, and new baby -- Elizabeth, Billy, and Bailey. She is sooo cute! And I think her hair is going to be red. :) We had fun together. They left today to go back to Cental Asia where they are working. Pray for them, their ministry there, and their families. They are a blessing to me.

Well, this one handed typing is getting hard, so I will end for now. Please pray for the following prayer requests and I will continue to keep you updated.

• For chemo treatment for me and my friend Tracey on Monday, May 22nd at 9:00 a.m.

"The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear Him, and rescues them." Psalm 34:7

"[We] will praise the LORD at all times; His praise will always be on [our] lips." Psalm 34:1

• For Tracey

"Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid" John 14:27

"[Tracey] sought the LORD, and He answered [her] and delivered [her] from all [her] fears." Psalm 34:4

• For scans that I have sceduled for June 5th - that they will all be clear.

"The LORD will sustain [Kim] on [her] sickbed; You will heal [her] on the bed where [she] lies." Psalm 41:3

Thank you all again and many times over for your continued support and prayers. Check out the links I finally got added to my page, with Billy's help. They are very good and informative.

May God Bless!

"God will mark out thy path tomorrow in HIS best way." Anonymous

PRAISES TO OUR GOD

Praise the LORD, my MRI came back with good results. No new lesions!!

"Sing a new song to the LORD; sing to the LORD, all the earth.

Sing to the LORD, praise His name; proclaim His salvation from day to day.

Declare His glory among the nations, His wonderful works among all peoples."

Psalm 96:1-3

My chemo was a little harder this time. The nausea and flu like symptoms were a little worse and lasted a little longer. But they are over with now, so that is good. Now my energy level is just down. My mind is rearing and ready to go and do things, but my body says "no". But I just do a little at a time.

But my God is giving me the strength to go through all this each and every day. And I'll gladly do whatever He wants me to do to be healed; Whatever He wants me to do to be the witness He wants me to be. I can't heal myself, only God can do that.

Psalm 77:14 says, "You are the God who works wonders; You revealed Your strength among the peoples."

He is a God who works wonders or rather "performs miracles". And He continues to do that today and every day. We must believe and have faith. We must look for it; have faith He will do it; and everyone will see how He performs miracles.

Matthew 9:22 says, "Jesus turned, and seeing her he said, 'Take heart, daughter, your faith has healed you.' And instantly the woman was healed."

We must believe He can and will do that today.

Pray:

* for continued strength for each day

* for faith that He will heal

* that others will see God in me and my situation

* for opportunities for witnessing

"Be gracious to me LORD, for I call to You all day long.

Bring joy to Your servant's life, since I set my hope on You, LORD."

Psalm 86:3-4

Thank you all again for your continued support and prayers. God has truly blessed me.

May God bless each one of you this day.

K.P. (Kim) all things are (Possible) with God!!

The MRI has been rescheduled to MONDAY, April 17th. My brain scan and doctor's appointment was for Monday instead of Friday. I didn't find out until Thursday afternoon. I meant to update the blog before now.

Sorry for the confusion, but I bet our prayers will still count for Monday too! :) I will update the blog sometime after Monday.

Thank you for your continued prayers and support.

With much love,

Kim

The Benefits of Chemo!

Thanks so much for the great response from everyone about my blog! I think it is a great way to keep everyone updated.

Well, Sunday I got to experience my hair coming out - again. At least I had an idea of what to expect this time since this is the second time I've lost my hair. Running your fingers through your hair and having most of your hair be in your hand is a weird experience. Sunday, every so often, I would stand over the garbage can and just pull hair and throw it in. I did this many times during the day, and then by then end of the day I went to look at my hair in the mirror and it looked like it was all still there - like hardly any had fallen out. That is a lot of hair!! And the Bible tells us that the LORD knows the number of hairs on each of ours heads! Is that not unbelievable! He is so awesome and amazing. I could never count the number of hairs on my head and He knows the number of all of ours.

As I recall, it will take a few days for it to all come out, but my head is very sore. My friend Wendy came tonight, Mondy night, and cut my hair real close to my head. It looks like it has been shaved, but with bald spots and lines everywhere. It feels so much better though. That helps with the soreness. This is the second time she has gotten to shave my hair off. Not something we are real excited about, but at least we've been able to do it together.

Some benefits of chemo are:

1. With no hair, you don't have to worry about buying all those hair products or fixing your hair everyday.
2. You don't have to shave your legs either!! What a great benefit for Summer time!
3. You don't have to pluck your eyebrows.
4. You don't have to worry about unwanted hair on your face.
5. And your skin is very smooth.

Of course, these are benefits for the females out there. I don't know what they are for men, since I'm not one. And these are just the skin benefits. As more arrive I will relay those too.

My next chemotherapy is scheduled for this coming Friday, April 7th. Please be in prayer for that. I also have an MRI of the head scheduled for the next Friday, April 14th. It happens to be Good Friday, so let's pray that is truly is a good friday. I will remind you next week about the MRI again. This will be a big test since I haven't had one since my last Cyber knife treatment.

I want to try to tell you all about Bella every once in a while as well. Bella is my baby. Well, she is actually a dog, but she's still my baby. She is almost 5 months old. I received her for Christmas from my niece-in-law, Gina. She is a rat terrior/beagle mix. Terrior being the main word - especially if you leave the "i" out - which makes it "Terror". Hyper is not the word for her. At times, she is beyond hyper. But I love her. She has been so much company for me. She keeps me going some days - more than I want - but definitely keeps me going. So, from time to time, I will tell you Bella stories. They are great. She has her first real Vet visit this Wednesday - Bath, dip, nails clipped - the works. She's had all her shots, but hasn't been to the actual Vet building yet. They did house calls for the shots. I can't wait to see what the workers looks like when I come to pick her up!!

Here is a puppy pic of her:

Here is a more recent picture:

Isn't she precious? (As my Daddy says)

Ways to pray this week:

1. Pray for my upcoming Chemo on Friday - that all will go well and that the medicine will do it's job by keeping any new tumors from growing.

2. Continue to pray for my energy and strength.

3. Pray that I will have the energy to exercise this week - even if it's just a little.

4. Now that I have my belongings back, I have a lot of things to put up; clean out; etc... Pray that I can get some of that done this week, so that it doesn't seem so overwhelming to me.

5. Most of all, and above all else, Pray that I can be the witness I need to be each and every moment of every day - no matter what is going on with me.

Scriptures and Prayers this week:

"A man with leprosy came and knelt before him and said, 'Lord, if you are willing, you can make me clean.' Jesus reached out his hand and touched the man. 'I am willing,' he said. 'Be clean!' Immediately he was cured of his leprosy." Matthew 8:2-3

Lord if you are willing, you can make Kim clean. Reach out your hand and touch her and cure her of this cancer.

" . . . And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up." James 5:15

Lord we pray in faith that you will make Kim well; that you will raise her up.

Of course we pray all of this in Jesus' holy and precious name and we praise Him and thank Him for all He has done and for all He is going to do.

Thank you all for your continued support and prayers! See you next week!

One Week After Chemo

Well, it has been one week since my chemotherapy and I am doing well. I had a little nausea and sorness with tiredness, but that it normal. I am feeling better this week.

The day of my chemo was especially special too!! I received my belongings back from Singapore!! Praise the Lord for all who had a hand in getting my things back to me!! It was a good time together - we all praised the Lord together that day. It made my chemo day so much better. My sister went with me and two of my friends. One of my friends brought chocolate and artificial gerber daisies. My favorite flower - especially the artificial ones, because they never wilt or die! :)

Things to pray for this week:

This week my counts will be at their lowest, so that means that I can catch things very easily. Pray that germs will stay away from me and that I do not get sick.

Secondly, if my hair is going to come out, it should happen by this weekend. So, pray that this goes smoothly. I have went through this before, but no one wants to loose their hair. I'm prepared though. I have some new Spring and Summer hats and scarves! :)

And thirdly, I still do not have much energy and I want to have energy. Pray for increased energy and stamina so that I can exercise and get back into some kind of shape. This will help me both physically and phycologically.

Scriptures for this week:

"I will not die but live, and will proclaim what the LORD has done." Psalm 118:17

Pray that I will not die but will live and will proclaim what the LORD has done!


"Praise the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits - who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases." Psalm 103:2-3

I Praise you O LORD with all my soul and I will not forget all your benefits. Thank you for forgiving all my sins and I thank you for healing all my diseases!

Thank you for reading my blog and for your prayers. Please send your comments and let me know if there is anything else I can add that would help.

Many blessings!
Kim :)

Praying for Healing

Hello Everyone! And Welcome to my Blog!

I hope to update this blog each week with reports on how I am doing and with scriptures and ways that you can pray for healing.